Been taking it in
Pretending like
There is no hurt
Buried within
Living on the bottle (oh)
Life in full throttle (oh)
Now it's out of control
What happened in this house
Can't talk about
Shady memories
I can't explain
Say it don't matter now
It's all in the past but I
Been thinking
I need to break free
From the me I used to be
I need to just breathe
I need to just breathe
I need to just breathe
Breathe, breathe
I need to just breathe (Ooooooo-hooo)
I need to just breathe (Ooooo-hooo)
I need to just breathe
Breathe, breathe
Breathe (Oooooooo-hooo-oo)
I couldn't see
Who you pretended to be
Getting closer to me
Knife that's in my back ooh
We fell into the cracks oh
Hands in the air
While I exhale
What happened in this house
Can't talk about
Empty promises
Like the ones you made
You say, 'Forget about it'
You can't take it back
But this little girl
Living within me
Screams so loud and I can't seem

To just breathe
I need to just breathe
I need to just breathe
Breathe, breathe
I need to just breathe
I need to just breathe
I need to just breathe
Breathe, breathe
I need to just
I need to just
Oooooooo-hooo-oo
Oooooooo-hooo-oo
Oooooooo-hooo-oo

SoulDeep, Breathe lyrics

As I watched a Jerry Flowers (@redefinedtv) sermon where he addressed the “what happens in this house,stays in this house” mentality many of us grew up in,I realised that not talking about trauma is more commonplace than I had imagined, and moreso when it comes to sexual trauma. I don’t remember the actual day I wrote the first lyrics to this song, but I knew @splitsloui had sent me a great beat that captured some of what I was feeling. I don’t know if I got the lyrics first or the beat, but when I put them together, it all made sense. Unlike ‘My Type’, this song touches on issues that I haven’t come to terms with yet, making it an easy song to write, but hard to sing. It wasn’t easy at all trying not to get flashbacks of my childhood trauma during the creative process, while also realising how many people could be in need of a song like this.

The year that was 2020 pushed into my second serious mental health crisis. When I wrote this song, I was going through the most mentally. It was probably during or towards the end of the lockdown due to the COVID-19 pandemic. My childhood trauma, and the subsequent pain and series of what I now believe were misguided choices that came from it, drove me to seek professional help for the first time in my life. Although health issues forced me to pause my therapy sessions, I can confidently say that through prayer, sermons and the help of my therapist, I have started the healing process. Therefore, Breathe is an important part of my repetoire, not just because of the many people that can relate to the content of the song, but it introduces my current struggle as well, make it both relatable and personal.

Click to stream the Breathe Official Visualiser